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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

MY CRUSH

I don't need you to heart this, but please read it.
Your letters make me look forward to something.... someone one day feeling that way about me.
Don't ever stop loving and falling for people. You give people like me hope, at the very least. :)
Thank you, strangers.                                                      
Everything reminds me of you; colors, musicians, numbers, logos, farms, even carnival rides.
And everyday is getting to be more and more challenging.. and heartbreaking.
I miss you.. I miss you so much. I'd give anything to see your face again.
                                                                          
i should havethis is why i could not sleep last night
when you suddenly began talking to me again that day something in me came alive once more- i thought i had buried you for good. it's almost comical to watch what happens within me after anything and everything you do- the way i feel inside, the way my head spins into overdrive when you even begin to look at me, your eyes searching my face-
i still remember trying to fall asleep at night back then- i would smother myself in pillows and blankets and pretend i was in the arctic, tucked into a crevice with you and only you by my side, your cheek warm against mine, the stars dancing in the sky. i still remember, you love the stars.
then when all of a sudden everything died out i imagined i had waited too long- all the moments you had spent with me, moments you chose not to spend with anyone else, moments i took for granted. i told myself you weren't my type of girl, i told myself you'd be all better some day-
and now suddenly you come to me with that fuzzy warmth just like before- and i realize i am not all better, and it's you who fits perfectly by my side.

this is why i could not sleep last night

I want to feel happy whenever I get up in the morning. I want someone to talk to all the time, every day, about absolutely anything. I want someone who will take the extrovert out of my introverted self, someone who brings out the best in me. Someone who has the words to make me smile, the jokes to make me laugh, the shoulder for me to lean on and the hand for me to hold. Most importantly, I want someone who will prove to me that love is not a big hype that everyone falls for

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